Let Us Unite at Last Şiiri - Bahar Ada

You fill me with your emptiness,
Though lies surround the edges of my heart.
You never let me tire of my loves,
Each time, you wrap me again.

You give me the strength of resistance.
With these resistances, I continue walking towards Your Love.
Sometimes, I make mistakes, and sometimes, I go astray.
There are times I’ve lost my way.
Of course, you add that to the equation.
I burn fiercely in the false fires of your sincerity.
When I am reborn from my ashes, like a phoenix chick,
I pull the wisdom of my existence from the prayer beads.
This is just an example,
Of the times I’ve strayed from the path.

You carve the beautiful, true parts of you,
Into my memory with the sparks of my existence.
There is no under or above my consciousness.
My memory has its joy and its sorrow.
Because of my scattered, wandering states,
Though I thought I had left you,
You wait for me, believing I’ll return one day,
You wait for me with faith.
You wait for me,
Believing I will return to your fire, to your water,
To your breath, to your creations,
And to your eyes.
You wait patiently,
Even when the situation has become grave.
You love me even when I set fire to the wisdoms belonging to you.

What arrogance can I possess,
To reach your presence?
How could I possibly approach that unique, matchless peace?
("-Forgive me!")

In the end, not even my harshest stumbling,
Can make me abandon you, or make you abandon me.
After all:
(Love is, everywhere Love.)

I thank you for the faith you’ve given me.
I love you so much.
My love, but what of the labor you’ve invested in me...

You, the one who wants to know everything:
-"Either me or nothing" you say.
-"Either we are zero, or we are one hundred" you say.
-"Zero and one hundred balance on the scale" you say.
-"Equality" you say.
After all:
(Your art has no equal, no comparison, It is unique and one.)

I obey and
I gain your approval.
I turn my back on the rebellions of life,
And I throw away the world’s systems.
I don’t expel those who come to occupy my mind from your door,
But with a mind trying to rid itself of thought,
I watch as the invaders pass by in their own state.
Just as you commanded, I do not touch their sticky weapons.
After all:
(It will not be easy, we will tire eventually.)
You never liked commands,
But you know they are necessary for the governance of life.
Justice is the magical ledger between the just and the unjust.
You are the author of the "Holy Books."
You are the mother of the law of nature.
I am aware that,
That is exactly why you are the most humble one,
My love...

I fall in prostration with the eye of my forehead (third eye).
My whole soul and body are begging in Your presence.
Even after death,
If You recreate me,
From Yourself.

Free from the shapelessness of life,
I am reshaped once again in Your hands,
My love...
I swear by the name/word of the Sun, Moon, and all the worlds,
Which belong to You,
To the Heaven and Hell of Your worlds,
That as Your pure scent reaches my nose,
I will continue to repent.

I come to your majesty.
I curse every drop of time spent without you.
I am wounded by your absence.
I watch the waters that strike the shores of my absence.
(Neither I without you, nor You without me).

As I watch these things happening,
The foamy waters wash my skin.
Lives grow emptier, and
You know,
I long for Your truth.

You invite me to realize:
-"Lose your excitement and come to me" you say.
-"Come to me calmly" you say.
-"Come slowly" you say.
-"No matter what, still come" you say.
After all:
(You bring forth the words of Rumi, too).

As my excitement fades,
I find You, and
The secret is revealed,
The changing truth within me.
After all:
(That is the One and Only, You).

If my body tries to reach the tongue of That One every day,
It will show itself,
And perhaps this story will become clear.
Words are delicate in reality.
After all:
-“What did you do today for Yourself?” says That One.
I must drink water and sweat out my consciousness,
-"Get away, dirty thoughts!" I say.

While walking with calm steps, I must not waste time.
You are not the end of the road, you are the road itself.

You are the only one who can bring me pain without lamentation.
When my face turns to Your mercies;
It is always because of Yourself: You.
It is always because of itself: Me.

Every reason for my existence,
Is your baby’s equation;
To those 'just' worlds.

You are the balance, my Love.

It seems simple to reach peace.
But it is so hard,
To abandon childlike excitements...
Either we simply accept this climate,
Or play a hard game.
Either we are guided by this caravan
Or we leave this world of realms.
To other realms;
Breathless.

This morning, you made me face the awareness
That I will one day reunite with You.
Take me into your fold now,
Wrap me in your fine white cloth,
Kiss the color of your earth,
And love the middle of your forehead.
I miss you so much.

Gulê