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Başkalarının hikayelerindeki yitik imgeler olarak kalmamak için uğraşıp duruyorsun. Sırf bunun için uğraşman bile senin çoktan yenilgiyi kabul etmiş olduğunu gösteriyor. Sessiz mumlar geçiyor gülüşlerinden, bir mehtap biliyor suskunluğunu, bir de karşıdan görünen selviler. Gökyüzünü maviye boyamaya çalışmaktan sıkılmadın mı hala sen?

Parmakların tedirgin, ellerini takip ediyorlar hareket ederken. Vücudun sanki yıllar geçmiş dokunmamış başka vücutlara. Ne kadar uğraşırsan bir başkasının şiirlerinde kaybolabilmek için, o kadar dibe batıyorsun. Düz yazılar da sıkıyor seni artık. Bir şeyler arıyorsun o selvilerin içinde, uzun sürecek bir şeyler...

Sıkılmışlık, tedirginlik, kaybedişler, uğranmayan en güzel duyguların rahat bırakmıyor ayaklarını. Nereye kaçacağını bilmediğin çocukluk saklambaçları gibisin. Küçükken en azından nereye saklanacağına karar verebilirdin. Oysa şimdi saklanacağın yerin yönünü bile bilmiyorsun. Birkaç nota var ellerinde çalmak istediğin, onlar da piyano başına oturduğunda gidiyor hafızandan. Tam bir işe başlayacakken, geçmişteki tüm başarısızlıkların geliyor aklına. Ne işe başlayabiliyorsun, ne de başarısızlıklarını kabul edebilmeye...

İnsanlar geliyor, insanlar gidiyor. Hiçbiri kapından geçemiyor. Hiçbiri sana coşku veremiyor. Hiçbiri unutturmuyor kırgınlıklarını...Sen, ellerinde sarı sarı sönük şarkılar, ayaklarında renksiz birkaç adım, sabretmeyi bile bekleyemiyorken, bir de şimdi bu sıcak akşamlar bastırdı. Hani yağmurlar yağarken 'Soğuk nasıl olsa' der geçerdin. Dışarı çıksan da yürüyemeyecektin nasıl olsa. Caddeler buz keserken kalbini dinleyemediğini fark edemeyecekti yanından geçenler. İsyan etmeyeceklerdi. Ama şimdi...

Toprak kokusu gelmiyor derinden. Kurumuş güller bastırdı saksıları. Sulayamadığın için çok üzüldüğün çiçeklerin vardı senin eskiden. Şimdi? Koparılmayı bekleyen kuru dallar, eskiyen ezgiler var rüyalarında, artık özleyemediğin kardeşlerin var uzakta. Bahçelerinde koştururken çok yorulup bir bardak soğuk suyuna özlem duyduğun eski evler var yaralarında. Bu yüzden yaralarını saramıyorsun, evlerini görebilmek için...

Sessiz ol yine, yakışıyor suskunluk sana. Gözlerinden geçen gemiler seni nereye götürüyorsa, o kadar uzakta ol. Bir ada bulursan, geceyi de orada geçir. 'Yalnızdım çok yalnızdım. Martılar vardı bir tek beni dinleyecek. İşte o yüzden onlarla konuşurken hep seni düşündüm' de deme bana sonra. Martıların susup seni dinlemek dışında yapılacak daha önemli işleri var bu gece.Daha seni artık hiç sevmediğimi tüm gökyüzüne duyurmak için bulutlardan izin bile almadılar. Hele bir izin alsınlar da, sonra düşünürüm, bu haberi sana nasıl vereceklerini. Yok mektup bekleme hiç. O kadar uğraşamayacağım....Bir damla düşer selvilerin yapraklarından kafana belki, sen selvilerden uzun sürecek bir şeyler beklerken, kafanı tepeye dikip gerisini düşlersin. Sonra da 'Sadece bir damla yağmur yağdı ne tuhaf' dersin.

Aslında tuhaf olan bir damla yağmur yağması değil; benim senin için dökülecek ikinci bir damla gözyaşımın kalmamasıdır...

Öykü ÖZ

'Bas tetiğe vur beni! Çünkü ben de seni seviyorum, ben de seni.'



Tik tak&klik klik klik

Düş gücü gerçeklikten kaçmak için değil, onu oluşturmak için kullanılmalıdır.

Colin Wilson

So much for suicide..

'Missing'

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
'Isn't something missing? '

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?


Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
'Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me? '



And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

İtiraf ederiz. Neden mi?
Çünkü biz de aynı suçu işlemişizdir.
Affederiz. Neden mi?
Çünkü biz de aynı suçu işleyebilirdik.
Unuturuz. Neden mi?
Çünkü biz de aynı suçu işleyeceğiz. :)

This time i forgot it.
I swear this sh*t was rotten.
This time, believe it
'Coz i´ve seen the shit u´re needin´!

Seytanin kuluysak eger, meleklerin
iyiligini kimse beklemesin benden. Hepsinin Seytan belasini versin!

Hayatta oyle bir an geliyorki, yasamayi basaranlarin herbiri, kendisini olmeyi unutmus bir hortlak gibi hissetmeye basliyor.

Kanatsiz Kuslar-LOUISE DE BERNIERES

'Olum dusuncesi izliyor beni. Gece gunduz kendimi oldurmeyi dusunuyorum. Bunun bellir bir nedeni yok. Yasansa da olur, yasanmasa da. Bir kaygi yalnizca. Beni, kendimi oldurmeye iten kaygi.

Tezer Ozlu

Ölümsüzlüğümü kanatan her kasırganın sahip olduğu ilahi adalet, yaşatır ruhunu sonsuza dek...

Sonsuzun benimle bir savaşı var.. Ama kararlıyım ben yenicem ;))

Herkesi anlık sevip giderim..
Anlık anlık anlık..

Sonsuzluğum bir anlıksa, geleceğim aydınlık, anlarım sonsuzluktaysa, geçmişim gibi karanlık...

Karanlık kalmanın şerefine:PpPPPpp

Death Can Dance

Bloodshot eyes nearly open I reach the skies,
You dance like a feather (you're in my dream) .
Gravity can kill but falling is cure,
Feels like heaven has turned to hell.

No bless for thousand miles,
No fragile wings to speed us,
Know how frail my world can turn into lovers leap.
You're still my dream and fear,
You made me light my fire,
Know how lust can lead from he to the lovers kill.

Cold before your voice took the piece of the night,
Pierced by an arrow (I'm in your dream) .
Hesitation kills and the speed is cure,
Feels like the moon is full and now we're chasing more.

You're in the spin and it feeds you,
You'll find,
Death can dance.

Stratovarius

The Hands Of Time

[Music & Words by Tolkki/Lassila]

The time is running
It's running so fast that you don't notice
Years are passing by
And you're growing older
What happened to all your dreams?
Did they become true at all?

We cannot undo the deeds of the years
They leave you on your own
With all your deepest fears

Don't look for the future
Don't live in the past
Just take it day by day 'cause life goes fast
The minutes, the hours
The days and the years will fly so
Live still when you have the time

We cannot undo the deeds of the years
They leave you on your own
With all your deepest fears

Wheel of the time
Turns again tonight
Eternally decides our destiny
Wheel of the time
Turns again tonight
Without reason or rhyme

The hands of time

Savaşa gir diyen düşleri gördük ey hayat
Bir nefes daha alsın diye yarınlara
Anılar yorgunu utangaç yüzümde bir tokat
Çok geç kaldık pişmanlıklara

' İman insanı korumaz. İnsanı koruyan şeyler.. tıp ve hava yastıklarıdır. Tanrı insanı korumaz. İnsanı zekası korur. Aydınlanma. Müspet bilimlere inanın. Birisi suyun üstünde yürüyeli ne kadar zaman oldu? Modern mucizeleri bilim gerçekleştirir.. bilgisayarlar, aşılar, uzay istasyonları.. hatta ilahi yaradılış mucizesi. Hiçbir şeyden.. laboratuvarda oluşan madda. Tanrı'ya ihtiyaç duyan da kim? Hayır! BİLİM TANRI'DIR.'


(DAN BROWN - Melekler&Şeytanlar kitabından bir alıntı)

Bu adam bu kdr mı mantıklıydı yaf? Şaşırdım..




I'm sorry but I don't want to be an Emperor - that's not my business - I don't want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone if possible, Jew, gentile, black man, white. We all want to help one another, human beings are like that.

We all want to live by each other's happiness, not by each other's misery. We don't want to hate and despise one another. In this world there is room for everyone and the earth is rich and can provide for everyone.

The way of life can be free and beautiful. But we have lost the way. Greed has poisoned men's souls - has barricaded the world with hate; has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed.

We have developed speed but we have shut ourselves in: machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical, our cleverness hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little: More than machinery we need humanity; More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost.

The aeroplane and the radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in men, cries out for universal brotherhood for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world, millions of despairing men, women and little children, victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people. To those who can hear me I say 'Do not despair'.

The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed, the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress: the hate of men will pass and dictators die and the power they took from the people, will return to the people and so long as men die [now] liberty will never perish...

Soldiers - don't give yourselves to brutes, men who despise you and enslave you - who regiment your lives, tell you what to do, what to think and what to feel, who drill you, diet you, treat you as cattle, as cannon fodder.

Don't give yourselves to these unnatural men, machine men, with machine minds and machine hearts. You are not machines. You are not cattle. You are men. You have the love of humanity in your hearts. You don't hate - only the unloved hate. Only the unloved and the unnatural. Soldiers - don't fight for slavery, fight for liberty.

In the seventeenth chapter of Saint Luke it is written 'the kingdom of God is within man' - not one man, nor a group of men - but in all men - in you, the people.

You the people have the power, the power to create machines, the power to create happiness. You the people have the power to make life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure. Then in the name of democracy let's use that power - let us all unite. Let us fight for a new world, a decent world that will give men a chance to work, that will give you the future and old age and security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power, but they lie. They do not fulfil their promise, they never will. Dictators free themselves but they enslave the people. Now let us fight to fulfil that promise. Let us fight to free the world, to do away with national barriers, do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men's happiness.

Soldiers - in the name of democracy, let us all unite!

- Charlie Chaplin

Bir adam babasının belki de haklı olabileceğini anladığında, onun yanlış olduğunu düşünen bir oğula sahip demektir.

Charles Wadsworth

queen of godless(? !) :))

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Mükemmelliyetçilik bu olsa gerek!

IN TRUST OF NO ONE

Your lover is dead in your game.
Rush to nowhere in a land of crippled lies.
Call me jesus and they’ll crucify.
Blood is blood when a word can tear you down.
Burn you to ashes with the look.

Love to make you the queen of godless.

Pain is pain when a world will bring you down.
Turn to tame my will as you crave.
Scent of a game in a world beyond my touch.
Called you angel and they crucified.

In trust of no one the treason is wearing your name.
Your life is a desperate game.
This I believe in,
The stronger my faith fades away,
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