One Is Worse Than The Other, Every Momen ...

Neither death nor life, neither future nor past,
The efforts I spent poured into the water,
My path leads to the abyss, perhaps,
An ambush awaits me ahead, perhaps.

I walked silently, without knowing my end,
I melted out of breath, with every step I took,
I seem to be surrounded, all around me,
I was one, and there was a crowd around me.

There is no light in front of me, darkness is always darkness,
Guides are a confused, inaccessible way out,
I couldn't come to an end, I thought, I thought,
A poison ivy, every idea I cling to.

The end is unknown, which way I walk,
It pushes me to a dead end, thoughts in my brain,
All around me is darkness, I am in a void,
One is worse than the other, every moment of my life.