I Draw A Blue Ribbon Over My Eyes

I draw a blue ribbon over my eyes,
Why is the weather so cold and why are you so absent?
I'm throwing mainspring bullets at the clocks when I'm talking about you,
All of them are stuck in my poems..
I exile you to myself.
You are the one I give in every breath, it blocks my brain..
My minutes in blood correspond to letters,
I get to S, a deep breath, the rest does not come..

I'm walking around looking at places like beggars now dear..
But there is a difference between us
They are looking for money, I am myself lost in you..

Today I see you between these sentences,
When I look into your eyes, Istanbul is raining on the snow now..
The moon shines like the sun.
You are falling on my words, crushing them all..

Father, you bring dead days to my eyes..
What else should I do if I can't turn it off?
Is it because I looked at you blindly, dear?

I drink a wine of love on your behalf,
My poems are intoxicating.

My feet carry my body under the rain,
My poems are getting wet.

You're leaving, darling.
Then my poems die..

I try to keep you alive in everything I do.
You are killing yourself..