Artificial light Şiiri - Figen Des

I’m checking your location just to feel something close
In this digital desert, girl, I’m chasing a ghost.
You said you’re "busy," I translated that to "done"
I’m always looking for a reason to pack up and run.
My ego is a glass house, and I’m throwing the stones
I’m better off in public, but I’m craving my bones.

Is it love or just a dopamine hit?
I’m addicted to the struggle, I’ll admit.
You’re the missing piece that I don’t wanna find
'Cause then I’d have nothing left to lose in my mind.

Am I just a temporary placement for your lonely nights?
A little bit of magic under artificial lights?
I don’t want to be the one you call when she’s away
But I’m the one who picks up, every single day.
I’m a masterpiece of "not enough," don’t you agree?

You’re posting pictures of a life I’m not included in
I’m counting scars and wondering where the hell I should begin.
Your "friends" are pretty, but they look like clones of me
Is that your type or are you just afraid of what you see?
I’m too much for a soft heart, too little for a flame
I’m just a recurring character in your favorite game.

Don’t tell me I’m special.
(I know I’m not)
Don’t tell me you’re different.
(You’re just a lot)
I’m just... settling for the pieces of the puzzle that don't fit.

Temporary...
Yeah, it’s always temporary with you.
But I’m still here, right?
Pathetic.